Here we are, it is the moment that everyone is waiting for with incredible anxiety and emotion, the day of the first ultrasound!
I am 12 + 2 weeks and I am here in a waiting room, I am really anxious to enter. I don’t know what awaits me, I’m impatient to know if everything is going as it should, if we have to worry about something, if it’s male or female .. And in the meantime I look at my husband sitting here next to me, holding my hand that in the meanwhile is trembling and sweating, he looks at me and smiles to say “everything will be fine”, in the meantime we chat and joke, we exchange full and loaded looks .. And I think “who knows what he is really thinking”,him , my rock, the dad, the one who generates everything and without whom I would not be here at this moment, but also the one who lives everything differently because in any case he is ‘out’ of the thing, I cannot understand what he really thinks and feels just as he cannot understand what I live and feel…
But let’s go back to the waiting room, they called us, it’s time! I enter with my heart pounding, they welcome us with warm smiles and kind words, I uncover my belly and lie down, turn off the lights and.. magic! There he/she is, you already see everything so well! They explain everything to us, they show us all the parts of that tiny little body that is forming and that in a few months we will hold in our arms and it will change our lives forever.. It is a unique emotion, I feel my whole body participating in the joy and to the emotion that I’m experiencing, I smile and look at that enchanted monitor, and a tear falls on my face, I know it’s the first of a long series, but it doesn’t worry me because they are sweet tears, of joy, and then I let myself go. The scan is over and before we go they tell us that they still can’t be sure, but.. it seems a girl!
We leave a bit dazed, I’m in the clouds, in a world of my own. I can’t wait to tell our parents, all our relatives and friends and show them the first photos of that wonderful new creature, but they don’t know yet. I try to reorganize the explosion of emotions inside me, but first… I have to pee!!!
We are in the car, we are coming back home, the house that in a few months will be turned upside down by a small human being..
There are still many worries and many fears, but I think they will always be there anyway, so for now we enjoy this joyful moment and wait to show the photo of who will arrive soon to the big sister…
See you at the next chapter!
Ale, mum of 2!